Sunday, June 10, 2007

My new vehicle

I don't know whether to call it a car or suv because its a crossover vehicle. It looks like a SUV but it's built on a car chassis. It's a Cadillac SRX. So far I like it. It drives like a car but I can haul things like a SUV. We traded in my Grand Prix. I love having the Cadillac because it is so much easier for me when I pick up groceries. No more bending and trying to get things out of the trunk. It is so much easier now. I even have a remote that opens the back up for me and closes without we having to pull on it. I was surprised Mark chose the Caddy for me because the price was so much higher than the other cars I was looking at. He said that he felt better knowing I was in something that was safe. Apparently this is one of the safer vehicles out there. I have a navigational unit as well as XM and couldn't be happier. I love the fact that I can switch on the nav and not be lost. My stress level has dropped so much just because of that.

I haven't given her a name yet. Nothing has jumped out at me. She is grey or silver depending on who you ask. She isn't all blinged out but she is a cadillac. Now if I could learn to park better in her things would be really good. I don't know why I can't judge the front of her and I have days where I don't pull up far enough in parking spots or I go to the left. I don't know. Mark critiques me all the time on my parking skills. Heck, if I'm between the lines and don't have my ass sticking out too far, I'm fine with it. I'm sure it will take time for me to feel totally comfortable in her.

The good thing is that I finally picked out a vehicle that Mark wants to drive. He likes driving this one. Normally he doesn't want to drive my cars. I don't know why either. He has mentioned things like I've driven all week and need a break but I think there is something more to it. Guess I should ask him sometime. Sometimes I don't mind being the one who drives but most of the time I like being the passenger. I can't sightsee as the driver. It's that ADD issue that keeps me from looking around. I have a habit of steering the direction I'm looking so I'm better off to just pay attention to the road. It makes for a nicer drive home. ;)

Cheese Dogs for dinner on Saturday's

We went to our first real cruise here last night. It was at the Dog 'n Suds in Fox Lake. I was surprised - there were probably 60 or so cars there. A few newer Mustangs and one Trans Am were there but the rest were all classic cars. Heck if Saturdays are like this, I'm not going to miss Detroit so much. A typical cruise in the Detroit area were over a 100 classic cars. It got to be where we would see a lot of the same cars and faces but it was nice. We are starting new here. Everyone seemed friendly and we got a lot of compliments on Elvira ('71 Firebird) which was nice.

I brought the camera and didn't even take it out of my purse. I don't know why.....I must have forgot I had it. I even joked on the way home that I should have taken a picture. Guess there is always next week.

I'm not so sure I want to have hot dogs for dinner every Saturday night but for now, what the heck. It wasn't so bad. lol I didn't even get heartburn which is a surprise.

Eric was off fishing with his Dad during the day and then called us as he drove by. He was even impressed and it sometimes takes a lot to impress him.

Friday, April 20, 2007

I didn't even realize

how much I'm really starting over. I thought that I have made a tremendous amount of steps in my recovery from my stroke. Today it felt like I was taking some huge steps back. I've lived in my own little world that has included a few websites, my home and a few trips to stores. Today I went to the Secretary of State office. Holy cow! Talk about confusion. I was so confused. I know the me of the past wouldn't have been so confused but the me of right now was so overwhelmed. I needed to get four cars registered in Illinois. Now, to come to my defense, Illinois doesn't make it easy. You have to have the titles with you ~ not just the registrations. I had to come home to get the titles of the three that we own. My car is a lease and I have to get some documents from the leasing company before I can get an Illinois plate. I also wasn't able to get a plate for Mark's truck because we need a letter or something from GMAC stating that we own the truck and there isn't a lein on the vehicle. Even though we have the title from the state of Michigan, it doesn't matter. Anyhow, while I was there filling out the three forms that goes with each vehicle, I got a little overwhelmed and felt like I was going to have a panic attack. It was so noisy and the space seemed to feel like it was closing in on me. I took a deep breath and managed to get through it but it was a close call. It didn't help that I forgot my reading glasses and was having trouble reading the VIN numbers.

Mark has been telling me all along that if I stay this way for the rest of my life, he will be happy because they had him believing that I was going to be really handicapped. I can't even put into words how much I love this man for wanting to stay with me and stick it out especially when I have these melt downs. I absolutely HATE that I struggle with doing some of the simpliest tasks. This puts so much pressure on him to take care of things. I really want to take care of things like I use to. I honestly do. I'm trying. I'm taking that one step at a time. Sometimes those steps are so small that I get frustrated.

I feel like I'm starting over with finding out who I am now. I'm certainly not who I was....which can be a good thing. lol I feel pretty pathetic snapping at Mark on the phone in the Sec of State office because it was so loud. I shouldn't have taken my frustration out on him. I put one more thing on his shoulders. He has enough on his plate with his job right now.

So, back to what this is about...... I didn't even realize how much I'm really starting over. I'm starting over as someone different from who I thought I was. I'm not complete yet. Perhaps over time I will get better about handling some tasks. I've come really far physically ~ it's those mental steps that really need some help.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Why my life in cars?

Well, probably because its that time of the year again. Spring is finally here and Mark and I can enjoy being in a hot rod. One of our most favorite things to do is to just go for a drive in one of the cars. We must spend the majority of our time riding around or sitting around hot rods. We love them! We love our hot rods.

We have Rosey. Rosey is a 1974 Trans Am Super Duty. Rosey is very special to us because #1 - they only made Super Duty's for two years (73-74) In 1974 there were only 920-921 (something like that) made and we have one of the originals. We also have Elvira. Elvira is a 1971 Formula Firebird that Mark has rebuilt from the ground up. She has so much sweat and love in her. She is called Elvira because she is our mistress of the dark. Or as I referred to her before Mark gave her a name - that black bitch in the garage who sucks up all our money. I have grown to love her. She has air conditioning - something Rosey doesn't have.

We have had other hot rods that have a special place in my heart. Red Hawk who was my absolute favorite of all time. She is a 1999 Trans Am Firehawk and damn she was fast. Mark raced her and it was some of our best times together. We just sold her before we moved back to Illinois. We also had Bluhawk. Bluhawk was my 2001 Trans Am Firehawk convertible. She was a looker who won all sorts of awards at car shows but she was so sllllllooooowwwwww. The weather in Michigan wasn't the greatest for a navy blue metalic convertible either. We sold her for a 1967 Firebird convertible. We didn't even give this one a name. She didn't live with us for very long. She didn't drive very well but she looked good.

That is just a few of our hot rods. I'm sure there will be more and I will be talking about them. I'm really looking forward to spring and summer where we can exercise our free will in these beautiful machines.

So I have to start over...

Either I can't remember my username or perhaps its my password. I'm not sure. Anyhow, I can't figure out how to get into my old blog so I decided to just start over. Sometimes starting over isn't so bad.

The previous blog was used more as a bitching area for me. I'm going to do my best to not use this one to only bitch but to reflect and perhaps make myself a happier person. Can't hurt, right?!

I've started over in so many areas of my life so why not here. I divorced at age 30 and started over with Mark at age 33. I've never been happier. That was one of the best times I ever started over. I started over by going back to work last year. I haven't work in so many years and started over by working in a scrapbook store. Ok, so that one isn't so far fetched but hey, I did it. I started over. I stepped out of my comfort zone and actually taught classes every week. Sometimes I taught a couple classes in the same day.

I'm starting over in Illinois now. Back to my old stomping grounds sort of. It's still starting over. Putting down roots and making new friends. It's good to start over and grow.